Hurt

Yesterday was so awesome, we went to a garden opposite 1Utama.
I never felt this way before.
It was just so warm, and my heatbeat never slowdown even for a second.
Although it was quite lame, but i enjoy the feeling when we're together.
But, the cherish moment gone so fast, i never even had a chance for another goodbye hug.
And the nightmare came, as her sister drop me a message, assuming me to get rid of her.
It was so pathethic to receive such a treathening message from her sister asking me to get lost from her life.
By judging me without understanding my personality.
It was so fuckup!
and now, she's confused and no choice but to leave me for a moment.
and i let her be.
"promise" was the last word i sms to her.
Non of us will know how long will that seperation last.
and what will eventually happen next.
You seems happy with your current status, is that true?
Even our time together was short, but it's definately unforgetable.
Peace out!

[These feelings came to my brain in a sudden]

I need a girl with cute attitude, self-confident and please not too over, don't have to be very pretty but acceptable appearance, natural feelings, caring, and perhaps importantly, she likes the way i are.

Something you should know

I felt the pain in heart for you, my beloved daughter. Everytime daddy tries to comfort you. You pretend like there were nothing. You always told me that you don't need anyone shoulder. It's because all you need was him. But the fact is, he will never come back to you. His existance is just a temporary inception in your life. No matter how hard you tried, he will no longer look back upon the days you both were happily together. I just saw what you did. A picture of him kissing with another girl? (Not cool at all !) That's just unacceptable. It's like commercializing his so called "Prince". (Funny ? ahha ! ! -_-) All he need is fame and popularity. You were nothing to him. Just pretend he never exist in your life now and for all. He doesn't worth a single tear from you or a second to think about. Please!

i'm sorry

i thou waiting for you can touch your heart
i thou you will give me a chance
i really can't confess when i couldn't have the chance
i really don't care about empty hopes
you mess up my mind whenever you talk to me
you mess up my heart whenever i think about you

i always dream about holding onto your hand and look into your eyes
tell you that i love you
and when you're moody, i wanted to be the first to make you smile
not the last to see you're fine

i did something wrong
i admit that i flirt

maybe it's too late to apologize

Dizzy Sunday morning

Whole day watching DragonBall at home
Remembering my old days in primary
How i wish i could turn back time and back to my childhood
It's so much more enjoy although i had much more freedom now
Yet, i felt younger days were so easing
Well, i'm really getting old

CONFESSION

IT'S JUST TOO COMPLICATED.
I WONDER WHY YOU'VE CHANGE IN SUCH A SHORT PERIOD.
YOU'RE SO DIFFERENT NOW.
I KNOW THERE'S SOMETHING YOU DON'T WISH TO TELL ME.

ANOTHER THING WAS FROM ANOTHER DIFFERENT PERSON WHOM I LOVED.
SHE'S PAYING LESSER ATTENTION ON ME.
WHY IS IT SO HARD TO COMMUNICATE WITH YOU?
OR, I'M JUST A HECKCARE FRIEND YOU WON'T EVER WANNA TAKE CONCERN.

ALL OF THESE QUESTIONS JUST COULDN'T EVEN GET AN ANSWER.

Feelings

It's been a moment i never updated my dead blog..
Doesn't had the mood to talk about my activities..
Had much funfill time with my buddies all the while yet still appealing lonely moments on weekdays..
If i could turn the scene to what i wanna, that would be not what it had to be.. (so called artificial)
The one who i love, doesn't care about me..
Keep on finding reason for myself so i won't felt so frustrated..
I always keep an eye on you..