i'm sorry

i thou waiting for you can touch your heart
i thou you will give me a chance
i really can't confess when i couldn't have the chance
i really don't care about empty hopes
you mess up my mind whenever you talk to me
you mess up my heart whenever i think about you

i always dream about holding onto your hand and look into your eyes
tell you that i love you
and when you're moody, i wanted to be the first to make you smile
not the last to see you're fine

i did something wrong
i admit that i flirt

maybe it's too late to apologize

Dizzy Sunday morning

Whole day watching DragonBall at home
Remembering my old days in primary
How i wish i could turn back time and back to my childhood
It's so much more enjoy although i had much more freedom now
Yet, i felt younger days were so easing
Well, i'm really getting old

CONFESSION

IT'S JUST TOO COMPLICATED.
I WONDER WHY YOU'VE CHANGE IN SUCH A SHORT PERIOD.
YOU'RE SO DIFFERENT NOW.
I KNOW THERE'S SOMETHING YOU DON'T WISH TO TELL ME.

ANOTHER THING WAS FROM ANOTHER DIFFERENT PERSON WHOM I LOVED.
SHE'S PAYING LESSER ATTENTION ON ME.
WHY IS IT SO HARD TO COMMUNICATE WITH YOU?
OR, I'M JUST A HECKCARE FRIEND YOU WON'T EVER WANNA TAKE CONCERN.

ALL OF THESE QUESTIONS JUST COULDN'T EVEN GET AN ANSWER.

Feelings

It's been a moment i never updated my dead blog..
Doesn't had the mood to talk about my activities..
Had much funfill time with my buddies all the while yet still appealing lonely moments on weekdays..
If i could turn the scene to what i wanna, that would be not what it had to be.. (so called artificial)
The one who i love, doesn't care about me..
Keep on finding reason for myself so i won't felt so frustrated..
I always keep an eye on you..

爱

我不会爱
i think i will become bachelor.....

nothing

there's nothing i can do to get your attention..

even if i tried, it makes no different..

so why would i wanna do the same when others were doing it..

to be notice is not to be normal..

and to be abnormal is to be special..

and only the special one will leave you nothing..

the biggest surprise is always from the one you never expected..

specially dedicated to a person who always treat me nothing

yesterday night was horrible

went maison last night like usual..

after a few cup of drink, i went to the dancefloor with my friend..

then i came back to my place, i was still fine...

around 1am i don't know what i did till today evening i woke up..

i was on the floor of my room..

whole body were pain and tired...

can't even move.. it's like after kena beaten... lol...

all i know from my friends was, after i drunk, i keep on asking for more drinks..

then i vomit like hell.. :(

then my friend left me there in kl, and he went to my house to ask for my dad to fetch me home...

lucky i din't tio rape... god bless me...

how embarrasing was that..

i should quit drinking for the rest of my life...

never been this worst before...

sorry to my friends who get involve and my parents for being so naive...